i just feel so not right.
i wanted to remb doing these n that. But ended up forgetting everything.
i must be very tired. so tired that i can't make myself remb.

my work stuffs are piling, and its really alot.
i'm not kidding. everyone in my team is basically take a big bag of work home to do. of cos exclude my exc.
haiz.
and so which means i had to work from monday to sunday.
so tired. only night time i can rest, but still i need to spend a little time with bf.
if not he will be bored, and he gonna go sailing for months soon.

hence, i need to be energetic by the appearance, but deep in me is TIRED.

i have no time for myself basically.
have been doing things to accompany my bf, my family, my dog.
oh and by next month i got to think of an idea to help in my sis stuff.

oh gosh, i need a break.
holiday?
out of the question. i will be so tight down with work now.

but anyway, bf is still such a sweet.
he would entertain me, make me laugh n forget my stuff.
am still glad he sometime offer to help me with my work. =)
we spent time together at home cooking, while he bath my girl.
LOL*

its really funny the way he bath her.
like 2 small kids playing around.

anyway, my girl bday is coming.
intended to do a bday cake for her.
and a birthday cap. =D

oh and its been such a long time since i saw any friends.
i could not even remb when is the last time i met a friend.
=(
memories are failing on me.

my life are just bored.
=(

i am having lesser and lesser time for myself.

i haven been living right.
just not right yet.
aimlessly working and working each day.
i am so tired so sad so moodless.
=(

i'm not feeling right.
not the emo period again.
BUT the experience i went through these days.
just utterly upset.

i can't tell bf. cos he will nv understand how terriblei felt more then he think.
can't blame him. cos he not me.

i probably need some time to think it all over again.
sometime i just can't get on hold myself to face bf.
cos i'll start to think again.

=(

wow.
its been a month plus since i last update. =Ppp

n i seriously been very busy with work.
everyday is just work n work.
n bf is also busy with his training courses.
This make us seldom see each other.

sometime i even sms bf that i almost forget how he look like.
n i even told him i somehow miss his voice. HAHA!
=P

to add on to the torturing moment , bf gt confinement for 2 weeks.
n i can't see his face at all. n during tat week, my parents went macua.
=.="

so left with baby girl n me.

well, anwyay, i think bf wanted to compensate me in some way, he finally agreed to buy Wii with me. =D
we share the cost together.
it would be totally unfair to bf to pay all, cos he only can play when he meet me. 
which is only weekend. HAHA~

n both of us are totally hook on it.
it was extremely fun. LOL..


oh well, these days is super difficult to find friends out at all.
so i given up.
i won't be the one who initial to ask ppl out. cos, last min sure gt something happened.
its really not once. but a few times.
which make one so relunctant to ask someone out.
put urself in my shoe and you will know.
i dunno why i can also be so "ON" u see.
argh!
anyway, i off to play my game.

ps: I MISS BF!!

its "MOOOOO" year.
how time flies.
2008 is not a gd yr for me, i hope in 2009 will be a better yr for me.
though i have an operation early in 2009.
but still hope everything will turn out fine for me.

n glad to say that i am recovering from emotional and physical.
but the wound is PAIN! , its having some serious water retention with stiffness around the whole area, and it landed as a long scar. =(

pls pray hard my health is in a tip top condition. =)

almost everyone wishes me having a good health.
instead of those usual , like good fortunate or something.
HAHA!

i so scare of the outcome when they remove the dressing for me.
cos i so worried that the scar is "pretty" to my surprise its indeed "PRETTY" =(((
the nurse help me remove the dressing n said its not pain.

conclusion is that all nurses will lie to u.
each time the nurse pull out the tape that stick to the wound.
ITS PAIN. i think there are a total of 10 small stapes sticking at my wound. =/

i look totally fine by apparence, but the inner could be damage.
=/
i scare of places that is crowded, avoid being bump onto ppl, n i can only eat fish , veges . not much choices to choose from actually.
very sad.

this new yr is very bored to me. nothing excite me.
i can't eat alot of stuff. n i felt so legthargic going anywhere at all.
so except going to my auntie place, n bf's grandma place. i did not went anywhere else.
even mom went temple pray, she said its gd thing i nv went cos there were lots of ppl, n ppl might just bump on me.
which is very dangerous for me. HAHA!

anyway, i am glad that with nice colleague around.
work is always more enjoyable. =P

anyway let me upload some pictures. before my blog really rot.
here goes....






the char bo who always email me.
disturb my work only. =X
i'm kiddin, a nice girl though she 2yrs younger den me. jessica teng auntie! lol .
always call me auntie, its time i shld call her too. =Pp
n she always use my phone to take her own pics.
my phone almost all is her pics.
=.="
well anyway, i really should thank her.
her never ending talk always make me laugh, her concern tat make me smile when i am in hospital, her initiative to bring me some light food to eat the day after my operation while she having her leave.
the most concern person towards me when hear i am going for operation.
=D
THANKS JESS!










of cos how can i forget my bf. the one who always bully me.
of cos the one who take care of me alittle when i am unwell.
THANK YOU DEAR! =D
its been 3yrs plus. WOW wow wow... it felt just like i get to know u.
appreciate the care he gaven me even when i am having a terrible time, when i am sick.
when my emotion is having its swing, when i am in hospital, when the only person who accompany eat porridge , and the one who help me finished up my tasteless porridge tat my mom cook specially for me.
When i down, u always gave me a silly look on you.
though u always nag me, but without your nag i sort of not used to it. like no more music to my ear.
=P
you always talk alot of BIG THEORY you have on you. but i always nv listen.
when i tired u nag me to acc u watch movie, when i am sleepy u ask me not to sleep.
when i dun want to meet u, u keep on asking me out.
we are so opposite. no wonder north n south pole attract to one another. LOL!
i hope many years down the road you will still unconditionally make me smile.
i thank you for your care, ur patience towards me.
of cos i hope you can be alittle understanding at times.

below is the picture of my scars! see it if u dare.
warning!!! its disgusting.

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Dear all,

Thanks for your concern.
i'm greatly appreciate.
=)

yesterday, is the day i most worried about.
but, still there are many ppl by my side.
beside all the nurse n doc.
i've my mom, my bf , n eldest sis to visit me.

mom nearly cried when she see me after operation.

okay, let me pen down what happened.

i was the first few to went for registration.
handling all the admission n payment.
den a nurse called me show me my ward n bed.
she measured my weight my blood pressure.
took out a list n tell me what i should NOT do after operation.

she bring me to my locker to put my stuff.
taught me how to change into the operation clothes.
den she keep on asking me to relax.
oh, she even gave me a rubber band to tie my hair, a cap to wear ( all the equipment shown in the drama or movie).
the rubber band that i use is banned =.="
they wanted to use their own rubber band which can be seen everywhere. the one which use to tie packet food. =/

oh n you must really take out everything u wearing,
in short u must be NAKED!
can't wear ur underwear oh!
LOL.
this really shock me.

okay, den i wait outside the operating theatre when the doctor is ready.
seat outside for a few mins.
An anesthetic n his helper came to talk to me.
they ask something like u know what operation u going for? what is ur ic?
u smoke, drink etc.....
den he tell me he will inject me first den give me breathe in the dunno what thing to make me slp.
also he will put a tube to my mouth, to give me oxygen to breathe in.
i was having a dry cough. they ask me how log have i cough. any fever, flu or giddy.
n i just said i only having cough.
he told me by right if any patient is having a cough or some other thing they will postpone the op.
but, he said he will continue my op since he said tat i've  only a dry cough with nothing else.
oh, he warned me tat my cough will worsen after the op.
(indeed its true!!!) i kept coughing quite badly. each cough i had my wound hurt.

ANYWAY,

soon after they said everything, they went into the op theatre, n get ready their equipment i guess.

i was damn freak out can!
my tears are like going to burst out soon.
in my mind i feel like back out already, or even walk away.
telling myself i shld calm myself down, its only a sleep in there.
i wanted so much to have someone by my side but both my mom n bf can't go in with me.
SEE! ppl won't know how scare i am.

den came the nurse to show me in to the op thearte.
there are about 10 ppl in that room, include my surgeon doc.
all like looking at my direction n all in the operation uniform, so scary.
i seat at one corner, a nurse ask me again what is my IC , lift up my hand n see my name tag, n ask me sign a form, something like a consent of death or something.
my surgeon doc came to talk to me, repeat the procedure, ask me to relax.
den soon, i was ask to lie on the bed.
( MY MIND IS IN A BLANK BY THEN)
i step on the little stool in order for me to lie on that super freezing cold bed, with super strong light shining on u.
damn freak out lo.
the nurse undress me, den covered me with a green cloth,
the surgeon draw a outline on me. to show me which area he will cut on me.
den the anestheic doc ask me place my left hand out n he will inject me.
(while the surgeon still drawing the outline)
tie my hand with a bend, beat my hand for a few time, n he said i can't find ur vein.
den a few guy doc, came to help him find my vein. they beat quite hard lo.
till i say ouch! =X
the doc still say how come ur hand can't find vein one.=.="
den he say NVM, i let u sleep first later den we inject.
den a guy doc, place a (dunno what) to let me breathe in.
123, breathe in deeply. very good. one more time 123 breathe in deeply.
( the smell is really hard to breathe in deeply seriously. like a very strong medicine smell with a light mint on it.)
n really dunno what happened, i knock out.
even u tell urself to open ur eye also no use. dunno why the eye will soon close, n the brain shut down that kind.
lol~
think of it also very scary.

ok, skip that.

den suddenly i like felt someone push me, n a very loud NOISES to ask me wake up.
like many ppl ask me wake up tat kind.
i suddenly open my eye so big . n felt like as if i had a terrible nightmare.
my whole head is like so giddy.
i can't even feel my body n leg. only my head is slightly moving left n right.
its like you seat in a roller coaster for 1000 times tat kind of effect.
n i keep on coughing n feel like vomit out.

also lie down on the bed with a screen to auto measure ur pulse many many times.
i felt so lethagic, nurse came by ask me how m i.
den ask me if my wound is pain, i say i can't feel the pain now.
but i told her my mouth very pain.
she look closely to my mouth n said my lower lip swell.
quickly she ask the anesthetic doc to come to see me, a few doc came by, n pull my lower lip to examine.
they said i bite on my lip.???
seriously i din even recalled biting on myself.
den actually the nurse said could be the tube they put in, nv put properly or wat tat make myself bite on it.
i slept already how can i recalled what they are doing to me RIGHT?
then the doc put some gel on my lip to numb the pain.
=(
then i dunno what happened i felt so so so weak, till my pulse is so low, n the monitor screen alert in red the nurse rush over to see me.
seriously i very giddy n weak tat time.

n my lip is still now look like a mini hot dog.
tat make me worst, i can't eat properly.

then, the nurse push the bed to my room.
i was monitor by a nurse, she change my drip, n so on.
measure again n again my blood pressure n ensure i m fine.
another nurse came in, give me a emergency button to press, if i need anything or wat.
i wanted to discharged so much can.
the room n bed i m lying felt so so scary.
n i was alone. bf n mom not yet come in.
the nurse come in n ask me if i can let family members in n ask for my mom's number to call.

before bf n mom come in, there this cleaner auntie keep on asking me to drink milo.
den she walk closer to me n say why i nv drink.
i told her , my lips gt medication, very hard to drink.
=( den she walk away.
fierce.

lie down in my bed stare blankly on the ceiling.
my whole body still feel so weak.
den nurse came to give me back my document.
give me medicine.
remove my drip.
the removal of the drip is SUPER pain. the needle is quite thick n long.
PAIN~~~~~ =(
i scream out alittle lo. LOL.

oh n bf n mom came in to see me.
but bf was chase out by nurse. i think bcos he is not my immediate family.
so sad.
both of them see me like i m a kind of freak u see.
they pull a long face, n nv talk.
see me with pain they can't help too.
my mom like going to cry out like tat.
she also notice my lip swell from a distance lo.
=( tat show how swell my lips are.

the nurse there keep ask me to rest on bed first.
b4 they check if i can discharge. lol.
waited for quite long , n i really can't endure the hospital.
n ask the nurse if i can discharge now.
they give me back my locker key n said only if i dun feel giddy den i can go home rest.
there isn't a need to stay.
told my mom i wanted to go home.
she took my clothes for me. help me wear . cos i like so weak n action is super slow.
felt pain in every movement .

i get down my bed. n i nearly fell down.
lucky gt my mom quickly hold onto me , if not i think i sure knock onto something again.
den the cleaner auntie ask me why go off so fast. tell me rest rest rest on the bed..
den i say i want go home rest. she tell the nurse, n den they give me wheelchair.
=.="

very troublesome.
even like want to discharge also cannot.
oh ya. of cos, my surgeon doc did come see me, n say i can go home b4 i really go home.
bf drive me home.
my eldest sis came to see me, buy rice for the whole family which include bf.
hehe!
all of them ask me not to walk here n there.
seriously, when i went home. my mind is still in a blank.
i dunno what m i doing.
den ask bf to feed my dog. shower her with care cos i can't take care of her now.
now, i can't even talk too loudly, cough or sneeze.
motion too big, n can't even sleep properly must keep on lying straight on the bed.

poor bf  yest send me hospital n wait for me till he is so tired.
i fell asleep on the bed. n he watch his show till he fell asleep on the floor.
i woke up see him like tat i also heart pain.lol*

okay i gotta rest again.
after eating the medicine i felt drowsy.
spent abt 2 hrs typing this journal.
ok , u can imagine how fast i m typing right now.
=(

i shall update pics again when i feeling better.
 

My Only Wish This Year - Britney Spears
Last night I took a walk in the snow
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love
Santa can you hear me

I signed my letter that's sealed with a kiss
I sent it off, and just said this
I know exactly what I want this year
Santa can you hear me

I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me
And someone to hold
Maybe, maybe (maybe, maybe)
I'll be on my own and I'll be thankful

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

Christmas Eve, I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong, for taking a peek?
'Cause I heard that you're comin' to town
Santa can you hear me

I really hope that you're on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Oh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me

I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me
And someone to hold
Maybe, maybe (maybe, maybe)
We'll be all alone under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me a love, I can call all mine
'Cause I have been so good this year
Happy alone, under the mistletoe
He's all I want and I'll be thankful

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

(Oh Santa, can you hear me?)

He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa that's my only wish this year

Santa that's my only wish this year

now the only thing in my mind is my family.
N on  the 30th dec there will be a full blood count before the exact admission to the hospital.
somehow everyone in my family is treating me extremely good.
bf ask me go out eat those food that will be forbidden after op.
mom n dad kept me accompany whenever they can.
=))

but i dunno why, just when i hope everything to be ok.OUT OF SUDDEN
my mom injured her left eye.minor burn near the eyelid. due to some accident.
sis is having some serious prob.
dad is troubled over his course.
as my eldest sis i suppose she trying to work her way out in the company due to economic crisis.

just when i hear the terrible news from the doctor.
i thought i have a terrible misfortunate only.
but come to think of it,i was just being silly.
i even cried whn i hear from the doc, uncontrollable tears flow down my face.
though i tell myself to endure no matter what it is. BUT haiz.
NOW my family is much more important to my health.
i dunno why.
but (touchwood) if anything really happen to me in the op.
i do not wan my family to be sad over me.
i dun like too many ppl to concern abt me.

i think its the truth tat, no point crying over the dead person.
cos they won't know. the only thing tat make the death person worry is the ppl who cares for them.
so that is what i m concern of.
=(

trying my best to be contented of what i have, treasure every moment i have.
trying my best to be happy.
trying to find time to spent every moment with my family.

i have alot to say. but i just dunno who i can tell my unhappiness to.
friends are busy , as well as i dun wish to disrupt their own personal time,
n family is already so worried for some other issue that happened.
bf is busy working.
though he say he will keep me accompany but haiz. there always his fling n frens around.
=(

so i can only grumble over here.
i find that the only way to release my unhappiness is to write in this journal.
after writing i will feel much better.

haiz. ok i think i will pray to the god.
i hope the unfortunate stuff will be over soon,
i wan smiley face to appear at my family faces.

2008 indeed is not a good year to me and my family.
i hope the very first day of 2009.
everything will be just nice n everyone to be happy.
n i hope the doc will save me from the pain.

-sign off-

i've been really busy these days be it in work or with family.
hardly have the time to rest. many many things happened.
was sick as well, bf fall sick at the very period with me.

both of us was basically sneezing and coughing together.
=/
was laughing at each other when our voices changes.
coughing at the same TIMING. sneeze out at the same time.
poor bf. i think i the one who actually spread the virus to him. =P
and he still insist to give me a hug, n a peck on my forehead despite i've told him i'm feeling sick.
=D so adorable of him, making me feel so in love with him more.

work was piling up, and there are endless of stuff to do.
the worst is that, its impossible to finish.

there was a day, bf called me to take a 3 days leave OUT OF A SUDDEN.
my thought is that " could there be a surprise for me?'' LOL...
well, the days were drawing near to my birthday.
and bf called me and ask me to check out for singtel promo.
???? he said he going to sign up for it, n cos i was working told bf to meet for dinner after my work.

n HE WAS VERY LATE!!!
waited for abt half an hour for bf till, i was so HUNGRY!
however, bf first thing he told me is the singtel shop things, the broadband thing.
he went with his mum somemore lo. LOL~
=P
have our dinner at fish n co.
bf was so nasty he ask the waiter to actually do something to our table as it was VERY SHAKY.
i told bf its just a minor thing, it was not a need to cal them, n i even tell bf i was stepping on it, to prevent it being shaky, but that bf is really so nasty, even have his angry tone to speak to the waiter.
poor waiter. so pity him la.
anyway, bf also very bad. nv listen to me.
even say that, if the table is shaky how can we eat properly together. n he dun wan me to step on the table foot. =Pp

bf drive me home, told me he bought me my favourite jelly drink.
2 dozens. LOL!
so lovely isn't it. i nv even ask bf to buy it for me. kind of surprise by him. HAHA~
reach home, i carried a box of drink, bf carried another box, n also his singtel shopping bag.

while inside my room.
bf ask for my HP, i thought he wanted to set my alarm clock for me, as he always do.
n out of a sudden, a hand holding my hp, n another holding the singtel bag.
bf say this is my present.
SHOCKED!!!!

i always thought that it was his modem for the broadband.
BUT being so secretive of him, he bought a MOBILE phone. =D
so happy. but kind of feeling bad, cos bf spent so much on me. =/
but yet i was so so so very much grateful.

bf did ask me whether i like iphone anot?
i told him its useless for me to use a phone with me who nv turn on to ringing tone.
as long a phone can be called or sms i will be delighted by it. =)
then bf say he wanted to get me F480 samsung but it was OOS. so he get another one for me.

bf put our picture in the mobile phone for me.
tell me how to use it too. HAHA~
since i always so blur. bf is the one who can teach me patiently. =D

on the start of my leave, bf ask me to prepare n off we go to KL.
bf drive throughout the whole journey, while me sleeping n feeding bf to eat n drink.
LOL, though i promise bf i won't sleep. but i gt nothing to do in a car.
so eventually i fell asleep.
=X

reach KL, we went to walk around the place.
the next day, we went to sunway lagoon. with their amusement park
it is really so fun. but i fell sick due to the rides i took when i've just eaten. =X

anyway, the night b4 its strike 12am to my birthday.
bf went out, as he say he nv bring any slipper so he going to buy it, n ask me to watch tv in the room.
he took for a hour b4 he back with his slipper. while me watching tv. haha!
den we went to the chinatown night market for a walk, bought a few disc to watch it in the hotel.

went back hotel, the time strike 12am, bf took out a red plastic bag.
n it was a birthday cake.
he bought it when he went to buy his slipper as well, hmmm, i must be too engross in watching tv or something till i nv even see him holding something.


my bday cake. so CUTE rite. HAHA~

bf even wrote alittle small card for me, with him sending a SMS to me when we watching disc together in the room.
=)
sweet!
i love bf.
grateful n appreciate the things he had done for me. =D

bf even say my bday i am the biggest.
=))

anyway,
i'm won't be updating anymore for this year.
as i have see my specialist, n will be busy going in n out of hospital.
to prepare for operation as well.
most probably will be early next yr.
the immune system in me is getting worst. tat's explain why i always sick.
i am so prepare to lose a lot of my weight. =/
is it a gd thing to me?

told bf abt it.
he was so encouraging. ask me not to worry n scare, as he will be my side.
even say i could use his medisave to pay for my bill.
awww~ (tears dropping)
silly him.
how to find a bf who adore u so much. I just love him so.
afterall, i think i must use the time to be grateful n contented in everything i have,
n must treasure the ppl around me. as who knows what will happened next.
i believe god let me learn that there are ppl who treasure me, despite the very down days i will get. =)

ok tat's all.
let update some picture of me n bf.

bf with the (dunno) what stone in the amusement park. OH, there were some "ghost" nearby who wanted to scare us.
with them at the top floor, but  bf was busy taking stones picture while me daydreaming. there was a loud bang n  ghostly BOO!
i look up, n saw a ghost n vampire. instead of being scare. i look up n wave n say Hi~......
bf still busy taking picture. HAHA~
i told bf abt it, n he laugh. the vampire n ghost is like stunned. cos we were not even scare.
somehow, i think i m so blur la. i thought something drop so i look up.
even tell bf luckily they nv pour water down. if not i go up n scold them. =P
bf say how come i can blur till like this. =/.. i think i slow react only lo.

the long bridge. is really very very long.

bf acting handsome. LOL!

bf n my baby girl COOKIE. awww. i love them.

the blur them. haha~ while flying kite at west coast park.

the picture whereby we put at our mobile as wallpaper.

testing my camera in the hotel. waiting for bf to take pics with me. haha~ i know i look somehow like auntie, n my eye dunno why its like this.
with bf behind me suddenly. haha~

make-up less. with bf half nake. LOL~ skinny pork rib for sale anytime.

love bf.

make up or not ... not much diff to me actually. i think withourt make up i look like ghost.

bf n i. without makeup again. super lazy to put up make up. haha~ being with him i can be my own self.
haha~ cos bf have been with me for 3yrs at 11/01/2009.
=D

its been so long. i still felt in love with him.
there were still a little quarrel with him, but not something serious. LOL.
he endure my blurness, my stubborn. while i endure his nagging and demanding.
overall we just balance up isn't it.
give in n forget. that is bf always tell me.
though i always say dun make me angry hor? wait i smack ur butt. HAHA~
but bf sometimes still make me boils!!!
yet his nagging is ultimate LONG~
without him reminding me to do things n bring my stuff i think i will forget abt taking my mobile out everyday.
haha~
without him, the world become so much silent. with no one to listen to me grumble my unhappiness.
i love bf, no words can explain how much i adore him as he do.

okay, i try to update alittle every now n then.
=)

bf is not free to keep me accompany tonight.
if i am not wrong, he told me abt him going for a __?__(km) run.
with all the sailor man, and it will be held in the midnite.
therefore bf have to stay in his camp for the day.
usually bf speak so fast n my mind often wander abt.
so well, i actually nv really hear and understand what is the content all abt.

heard rumours, that my in-charge was strict in work.
he dislike ppl to talk so on n so fro.
well, actually i dun really care abt it. as long as i did do my things.
but come to the part where by he dislike ppl to talk.

i suppose that will be alittle tough.
i need to clear my doubt when i met difficult task.
n no talking which means work is extremely bored.
well, mayb less talk does not harm rite?

=Pp...
furthermore, i still think my in-charge mood changes very fast.
kind of scary. lol!

well, applied leave for bday celebration.and was being approved
i felt so so so old suddenly.
but whenever i think of bf who is much older den me.
i became relieved. =P
okay, there is no logic at all. haha*

everyone in the office was younger then i am.
so i felt quite old.
=(

anyway drop that topic...

i am so going to cut my hair.
but bf insist of me not to cut.
=(
well, i want to cut my fringe n color my hair(mayb).
now my hair is superly messy.
which become unmanageable for me.
have yet to search for clothes to wear during my sis wedding as well.

so much thing to be done suddenly.

well on a happier note,
my baby know how to give"hand hand" in one command.
just say "hand".. baby will lift up her hand.
and if u use ur right hand baby give you her left hand(with her facing towards u).
n our left hand baby give her right hand to u.
awwww... too cute to resist.
lol!
i think i must constantly teach baby.

i know baby is 1yr old.
but BIG dog are harder to train.
and the breed i have is extremely difficult,
so seeing baby making such a improvement.
i felt so happy. =D

now mom n dad spoilt her too much.
till now baby do not eat her dog food.
in order for her to eat.
we must now, mix diff kind of vege, fruits or rice,biscuit  together with her dog food.
then my baby will only go eat finished her dog food.
=/
she is really very picky in the food she eat.

aww, she sure having good life.
n she love massage alot.
everynite whenever i sit at the little red stool.
she sure come to me n ask for massage. =Pp
i think i make her a habit for her to come for massage. lol*
which is also good.
massage for dog is good for their health, as well as prevent them from being sick.

=D

alright, time for me to have my rest, since bf is not here.
it will be a peaceful night.
off i go. =)
 

like what my title said.
today i've finally cut my baby fur all by MYSELF.
bath her.
play with her.
clean up her sleeping area.

i'm seriously dead beat.
spent for almost 3-4 hrs doing it.
okay, for her. i'm willingly to do it.
=Pp
fine, its my mom who is nagging at me to do something to baby.
mom keep on repeating that baby fur is GREY.

so i bath her super long. spending 1/2 hour scrubbing her whole body.
lol*
baby, was "stoned" for a few hours.
blowing dry her till she fall asleep.
n she lie her head on the chair, while sitting down.
(go imagine urself) sitting down with head touching the chair.
baby can do it cos her bone is so flexible. =Pp.
and she is extremely CUTE. though i forget to take picture.
as baby will definitely bark at me to come back to her if i leave her alone on the chair. =/

lastly, my baby injured leg have yet to recovered.
=(
i wonder should i bring her see vet next tuesday?
another $100+ would be gone again i guess. =(
but bf said the wound will heal soon.
okay, mayb let wait abt a day or 2.
if baby condition is still not good.
i will send her to A&E.

today though is sunday.
bf have his camp chalet n its complusory for him to go.
i wonder why is it complusory while it is a chalet being held by his camp.
well, bf was being force to go i think.
yesterday went facial, n my face gt a serious breakout soon after.
DAMN IT.........................................................
HAIZ, total regret to go. i shall not visit them again after 3 more session with them.
=(

so yesterday nv went shopping or do anything. except staying home to SLEEP.
haha.
sleep sleep sleep. BUT bf came to disturb me. =(
so i nv slept well.
instead he snatch my bed to sleep,and he slept throughout the whole day.
while i watch hong kong drama show, disc rented by bf.
i have to finish fast cos rental auntie start to cal bf.
so he sleep while i watch show.
HMPH.
actually i should be the one who should sleep.

this show that bf is a PIG.
he disrupt my sleep. =(
well, so in the end, i nv sleep.
went dinner at west coast after bf is awake.
after dinner bf sent me home, n i continue to watch my drama.
lol*

so the whole of yesterday was spent doing nothing meanigful
*guilty*

anyway dad told me he gt interview next month.
*SHOCKED my life*
lol, cos he said he is changing a job.
well, i somehow hope dad won't overwork himself.
he is not young, n i really want him to retired soon.

dad leg was swollen as well.
='(
hope he will get well soon. i want mom n dad in their pink health.
pray pray pray.

these day was really a down slope for bf
bf was feeling VERY DOWN
so it affected me as well.
no matter how much funny face i make. bf just smile back, n give me a sad face again.
frstly,his family prob, he can't get along well with his family.
secondly,his financial prob.
hai, sometime i wonder how come bf n his family can't get along well.
n his family dun even help him at all.

n seeing bf extremely sad.
this is the first time after abt 3 yrs together, bf almost cried out while talking his family prob to me.
i can't bear to see bf like this.
so i told him that, "chow" family is always welcoming him to get the warmth from us. =)
i have a dad who speak chinese like singing song, catonese accent is super strong.
who also nv stop talking his perfectly CHINESE to everyone in the family or anyone.
though his catonese(hong kong) convert to chinese vocab is extremely funny.
i have a mom who cook delicious food, and the most most understandable mom .
i have my sisters, bro-in- law, n jovan, who bring joys to the family as well.
lastly 2 lovely dogs. PIPI n COOKIE, woof woof woof. =))

how not to be loved by us.

=)

well, now my next mission is to clean up my room.
i seriously can't stand the dust in the room.
and jovan bday as well as my sis bday is next week.
i'm so need to buy present tml.
isn't it great that tml is HOLIDAY.
yeah!
 
this picture is still kept in bf wallet.
and he kept on repeating again, again , again, again n again.
HOW AH LIAN I USE TO BE.
thanks lo.........
i'm not. and dun ask me why i use to be like this.
let me go back 4 yrs time den mayb i could recalled. =Pp
i miss my nose stud la.
='((((
i dun think i can put it back again. if not bf will say me look like ah lian again again again n again.
i so scare of his nagging too. so LONG WINDED.=P

ok i'm off to watch tv.

i totally like britney new song. "WOMANIZER".
heard it many times through the FM.
haha.
even the radio station played it many times within a day.

okay, well i've nothing much to update actually.
cos i'm seriously in a rush to clean my baby up.
before i head to sleep.
baby gt a big cut on her leg recently.
i wonder when n how she got it. =(
so sad.
but she still jumps around.
sometime i wonder if she is a rabbit the previous time, n now she become a dog.

read through a newspaper today.
a forum wrote..
HDB SHOULD BAN PEOPLE TO KEEP A DOG!!!
i think its rubbish.
how can some ppl be so meaningless, asking a pet lover not to keep a pet dog.
if let say, no one keep dog.
there won't be any pet shop needed, which lead to more unemployed ppl.
no more pet groomer, no more pet shop owner, etc.
who shall bear the consequences n all.

it just like asking a person not to eat.
when someone love dog so much.
dog is man's best friend, n they are the one who is always loyal to you.

of course, there should be a reason why make some ppl hate these doggie.
Dog owner should always pick up the waste that came from their furkid.
nv leave any of it on the ground when you bring furkid out.
wash away with water when they urinated on the ground.
i think it is a sense of responsible.
i always do that.
i use plastic or newspaper to pick my girl waste.
use her drinking water to wash away the unrinated area.
SEE! i can do it, i suppose many of the ppl out there will be able to do it as well.
the moral of it , in my opinion i think ppl should be more understanding towards one another.

SEE! that is why i always want to leave singapore.
hai. =(

i long time nv post pics.
mayb post some old pics here for now.
basically i miss my nose stud.
haiz. should not have taken it out back then.
next time mayb i should blog abt the past me till now.
going through a process of a little girl to now an old lady.
and also going through a "plastic surgery" period.
by looking through my photos i think ppl will get shock.
even ex-colleague, bf, relatives say i gone through surgery.
FUNNY. but certainly i confirm everyone will say so. =(
i want to go surgery too. any sponsor? =Pp


the so called blone hair.




 
dumb dumb bf with me 2 yrs ago.

gosh, bf n i are together for almost 3yrs.
n i just feel like i've yet to know him alot.
=/

bf keep on hinting me on marriage.
last weekend his tatic was singing.
here goes: " i love u, u love me, we are going to be a family"
=Pp
there bf singing , still ask me whether i gt the idea anot.
lol*
but seriously i only awhile then get it. lol
okay, i'm slow, but i was in a mid of shopping around the town. haha*
could not concentrate.
anyway, bf was so adorable yet still i've yet came across the idea of marriage.

well, bf is here to occupied my room n watch tv.
will update soon. =Ppppppp